Kerel Razil Pinder

New Year's  Resolution – Kill 'em with Kindness As I sit and reflect on the last few days of 2013, I am beginning to pray about the things I feel God is leading me to do in 2014. 2013 was a year for growth and change and I believe that 2014 will be a year of harvest and blessing. If you read my first entry in August you will see that one of the things I lacked the last time God blessed me with a season of harvest and blessing was humility. Like I've mentioned before I struggled with selfishness for a long time, so I wanted to make a promise to God to always remain humble and to always find a way to be a blessing to others, especially during a season of harvest.  I have realized that God has blessed me in so many ways and has taught me a lot of things.  Therefore learning how to truly exercise the fruit of the spirit kindness is definitely a goal of mine for 2014. One of the things that inspired this change was watching others give so much of th...

Sometimes you have to Lose to WIN again... “Patience is a virtue that I seemingly don’t p ossess"   is a horrible saying that I would constantly repeat. I remember back in 2007 my family and I were going on a cruise and there was a mix up with my visa and the ticket agent told me I wouldn’t be able to go. I had never been on a cruise before, I was looking forward to this trip ALL summer and now I wasn’t going to be able to go, are you kidding me!!! I am embarrassed to say what happen next, but I can’t tell you where I’m going if I can never talk about where I came from. I broke down in the terminal of that cruise ship like a 2 year old. Literally screaming, jumping, stomping on the floor and crying in the corner. I am utterly still embarrassed as I type, I honestly through a childhood tantrum. Many people blame my huge obsession of having everything go my away on being the last child, but whatever it was God told me if I wanted to grow in Him, that tantrum mess had to g...

The Comparing Game Social Media has taken over our lives. You no longer just hear of friends’ engagements, promotions, awesome new houses, lavish vacations and birth of their newborn babies. You see it, you live it and sometimes you ENVY it.  Recent studies that focus on the influence of social media suggest that Facebook evokes envy and insecurity as a user is constantly comparing their "friends'" images with their own.  So in a society consumed with social media, how do we find PEACE with our portion? How do we find contentment in the season that God has placed us in? There is a popular saying, “The grass is always greener on the other side”, but I prefer the saying, “The grass is greener where you water it”. When you establish a relationship with God, you understand and realize everything you beg and hope for, God isn't just going to give you it. God has awesome blessings for us, but all of these blessings are blessings according to His Will and not our...

On June 29th, 2008 the last person’s name in the top 5 had been called. The curtain closed and, in complete shock, my dream of becoming Miss Bahamas World 2008 had ended. I had spent the previous year rigorously preparing and transforming myself for what I thought was going to be my “crowning glory”. This dream was just not a reality. It was clear that my Father in Heaven did not have this in His plans for me. Millions of thoughts ran through my head: disappointment, embarrassment, sadness and most of all CONFUSION AND UNCERTAINTY. I had put so many hopes and dreams and plans into this one night. I had no idea where to pick up the pieces. This was when I first realized my happiness in God. My “joy” in His love was conditional. Your joy shouldn't depend on your current state - that’s called happiness. Joy is the peace in your spirit that you feel no matter what’s going on in your life at that time. As I look back on my life and all the times I got upset with God because He ...

January 2013, God told me, "I need to reintroduce you to me, it looks like you forgot about who I am, My role in your life and the purpose I created you for. It's time to walk away from everything you have placed ahead of Me and our relationship. NOPE! It won’t be easy at all, but I promise you Kerel, it's really going to be worth it!" I spent my entire life in the church; I'm a PK, also known as a Pastor's kid. I accepted Jesus into my life at the very young age of 8. Through that time, my relationship with Christ has had its highs and boy it has had its lows.   I remember in 2007, going through a really difficult break up, I didn't know where to turn, who to call or how I would have made it out of my pain. I had a really good friend from college tell me that when you are going through a really rough time, that's a sign that great things are about to be birthed into your life. I was convinced this was just an ordinary line to help get me out of m...