Count it all JOY!
On June 29th, 2008 the last person’s name in the top 5 had been called. The curtain closed and, in complete shock, my dream of becoming Miss Bahamas World 2008 had ended. I had spent the previous year rigorously preparing and transforming myself for what I thought was going to be my “crowning glory”. This dream was just not a reality. It was clear that my Father in Heaven did not have this in His plans for me. Millions of thoughts ran through my head: disappointment, embarrassment, sadness and most of all CONFUSION AND UNCERTAINTY. I had put so many hopes and dreams and plans into this one night. I had no idea where to pick up the pieces. This was when I first realized my happiness in God. My “joy” in His love was conditional. Your joy shouldn't depend on your current state - that’s called happiness. Joy is the peace in your spirit that you feel no matter what’s going on in your life at that time. As I look back on my life and all the times I got upset with God because He